Ryan this week.
July 29, 2011
Ryan has been 5
years in heaven,
yet only one long glorious day.
Living in the heart of God,
alive in the light of His rays.
How we praise the name who
will bring us, into that forever day.
Thank you Jesus for loving,
just little lumps of clay.
hardest thing about losing your child is remembering
them. Of course you want to, but it hurts. It's the
kind of pain you can't wish away by forgetting.
Forgetting is more painful. This is especially true on all those special days
they're supposed to be
there with you. Like Birthdays, Christmas, New Years, etc...
As I write this, we are just 9 days away from the
one year anniversary of Ryan's Home Going.
July 29, 2007 will mark the "Last of the First's"
that all Ryan's family and friends have to
experience and endure. In a very real way, this
"first" is the hardest for me. Somehow a "Year"
feels more final. At least the pain of the
"first" things made Ryan seem a little closer and a
little less gone.
Ryan's Garden goes a long way in helping me cope
with it all. It's so full of life, growth and the love
that constructed it. It's alive.
Most everyday I read Ryan's Garden Marker and I pause for a moment
to just look at
the little differences that each day makes in the garden. I'm reminded that
one very special day will come, being united in
Christ, for eternity, with Ryan.
A Blessed and Everlasting First. Amen.
Ryan's 24th Birthday 11/10/2007
Can you hear the gentle sound of the wind
chimes? Today we mark the one year
anniversary of Ryan's Garden. Throughout
this last year the garden grew in and grew
larger. People continued to honor Ryan's
memory by planting or placing new plants and
items in their special, and perfect spots in
the garden. Many times I would simply notice
something new and not know who put it there,
each time brought a smile with the
realization that Ryan does live a little in
our collective memories, and in these
moments of Zen in Ryan's Garden.......
Ryan's Garden July
Oh our son how you're sorely missed
So dreadful at times the painful distress
Two years gone from us departed
Daily afresh are we broken hearted
How we wish you here with us living
But so humbly grateful for your perfect healing
Everyday moving closer to our grand reunion
Hugging and kissing you with such abandon
Even Jesus will rejoice in our harmony
All heaven will know we are family
Until arrives that great day
May God keep us whole I pray
Ryan's Birthday 11/10/2008
Birthday marks many changes in the lives of his
family and friends. His brother, lil'Addison, is
playing football on a scholarship at Chaffey
College, his dad, Big Addison, is now the preacher
at a small church in
Columbus, New Mexico.
His Aunt Terry passed away and joined him in heaven
after a long battle with
Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary
Disease (COPD). Being an Los Angeles
police officer, she was sent of with the full
regalia, including a 21 gun salute. Ryan's best friends, Trevor and Charice are
engaged to be married in May 2009. I know Ryan is
proud and smiling upon us all, and we sure look
to seeing that smile again. (Please
note Ry's young cousin Dylan, in the big picture
above. If you didn't know, you'd think Ry was taking
a walk through his garden. )
July 29, 2010
Four years gone from his
light years spent past heavens gate
Time to us makes us wait
eternities clock is never late
Ryan sees the reunion date
Jesus promised us this our fate
We love and miss you son - Mom, Dad & Addiboy
November 10, 2013
Ryan's Garden on his 30th Birthday
family would like to hear from anybody that knew Ryan Please post your
Ryan's Guestbook. Also, if anybody has any pictures of
Ryan to please post them to
Ryan's Photo Album.